Day 14 of 21
Big day. I leave a week from now. And Alisa arrives tomorrow morning from NY for une petite visite. Basically everything changes tomorrow.
This trip turned around for me in 24 hours with 4 things:
-Andre and Linda took me out to lunch.
-I went to Dr. Milo for my ear infection.
-A friend sent me three cheerful songs that I could listen to while walking.
-and I figured out the Metro.
Simple. From there, it’s been a process of freeing myself from, basically, old ideas. I feel so many obligations to people on a regular basis even when nothing’s expected. Being away from everyone, there’s no excuse to feel that pull and yet I still do. Like worrying that I’m not ordering properly, or opening the subway door correctly, or whatever. It’s endless. It’s everywhere.
I told Anjuna today, sitting alone in cafes, I keep calling up this image of myself: all these things that make me feel bad are like fishing hooks in me. And everytime I go into a place to write and think, it’s space to pull hooks out. That’s where I’m at.
I love Paris for this.
Today was another great day. I had lunch with Camille from Context. She suggested meeting at Ja Ja on Rue Vielle du Temple. The restaurant lets in alot of light and it was a sunny day. That along with white wine in the early afternoon was a very winning combination.
Camille had a chestnut /pork belly soup with Chantilly cream. Delicious. It was like ice cream. Camille visits NY so I look forward to more meals with her–here or there.
Here’s a pic of my first hot meal in two weeks:
After lunch, a little loaded on the vino, I went over to Anjuna’s to take photographs. I feel like Anjuna is kindred. We talked about alot of things and even though we have a language barrier, I felt that she completely understood the process that I’m going through. We talked about my Paris tattoo and she’s going to help me get what I want with the help of her friends.
Back home, sometimes when I felt too happy or giddy I would take that as kind of bad sign. Like maybe it’s originating from stress. It’s been a totally new thing to just feel happy.
Tomorrow: Alisa
Anjuna had Booba playing in her shop:
Paté and Heartbreak 